Hey guys.
Sorry to do this to you all with a long post, this might come across as a rant/vent (which it kinda is) but I also do have a serious question, which I'll throw out there first.
I'm just wondering... and I understand that this is a very personal question so you don't have to answer with a post if you don't want to, but has anyone here tried therapy from a psychologist/psychiatrist for any particular reasons? I'm just wondering what people's experiences might have been like if they have visited one of these things.
The reason I'm asking is because, well to put it completely bluntly and out there, I think I'm depressed. I guess I want "confirmation" on whether or not this is true and also, I want to seek out help and advice on it.
Long story short, I feel like crap. A lot.
To start with, I hate my full time job. I've been here for over four and a half years, I feel very under valued, under appreciated, people talk over the top of me all the time, my superiors shoot down most of my ideas, people don't seem to believe or trust me, for example - "Did you find this?" "No it wasn't there." "Did you look in the box like I asked you to?" "Yes I did and I'm sorry to say, it wasn't there." "I'll check myself then." I basically feel like I'm not good enough and that I'm not allowed to become good enough, if that makes sense. I feel like if I stay here then I'll never grow to improve, never get a pay rise etc. I feel like I'll be stuck. Basically, I wake up every weekday morning dreading the idea of getting into the car to go to work. I also feel like shit on Sunday afternoons/evenings because I know I have to get up for work the next day.
I find it difficult to stand up for myself as I have a low confidence/self esteem, been like that for most of my life. I was severely bullied all through high school and sadly, despite high school finishing ten years ago, it still lingers on.
I don't want be totally helpless... I've applied for new jobs. In the past twelve months I've applied for fifteen new jobs. Two of which I've heard back from, had one interview but unfortunately didn't get the job, and the other opportunity I passed down because it was only temporary. I've just recently applied for a new job and I plan on applying for another one I've spotted very shortly. I've been doing a lot of work on my resume as of late.
Now my personal life isn't that great either... I guess I shouldn't complain too much, I have a wonderful girlfriend who's absolutely perfect for me, but sometimes... I get the same feeling about my job as I do with some of my friends, e.g. under valued, under appreciated, not listened to etc. I try and help my friends a lot and I feel that sometimes, they may be taking advantage of it or/and taking it for granted. I hope it's not selfish of me to feel this way?
It's also upsetting because, well, I like taking care of my girlfriend and I want to help her. See, she has social anxiety and she has also struggled with depression in the past. She doesn't have the best confidence and I want to help her grow and help her better herself - I want her to be successful and happy. One of my friends commented on this and said that I shouldn't be doing this as it's "weak" of me and going to make me "weaker", apparently. It feels pretty horrible to hear that. :/
Exercise helps a lot... I do judo three times a week and I'm at the gym three times a week. Also as of late, my girlfriend and I do afternoon/evening walks about three times a week. I'm slowly easing her into exercise, as we continue the walking and get better at it, we'll move onto higher intensity exercise. Exercise does make me feel better, but I feel I'm an up and down kinda person. At work I'm down, then after work after my exercise, I go up. I'm a frickin' yo-yo during the week.
I guess... at the end of the day, with both work and friends, I just feel like I'm not "good enough". That's what's making me feel like shit.
Would it be wise to seek out the advice of a psychologist or psychiatrist? Or should I just talk to people about my issues? Are my problems sincere, or am I just being a sook? :/
Sorry to do this to you all with a long post, this might come across as a rant/vent (which it kinda is) but I also do have a serious question, which I'll throw out there first.
I'm just wondering... and I understand that this is a very personal question so you don't have to answer with a post if you don't want to, but has anyone here tried therapy from a psychologist/psychiatrist for any particular reasons? I'm just wondering what people's experiences might have been like if they have visited one of these things.
The reason I'm asking is because, well to put it completely bluntly and out there, I think I'm depressed. I guess I want "confirmation" on whether or not this is true and also, I want to seek out help and advice on it.
Long story short, I feel like crap. A lot.
To start with, I hate my full time job. I've been here for over four and a half years, I feel very under valued, under appreciated, people talk over the top of me all the time, my superiors shoot down most of my ideas, people don't seem to believe or trust me, for example - "Did you find this?" "No it wasn't there." "Did you look in the box like I asked you to?" "Yes I did and I'm sorry to say, it wasn't there." "I'll check myself then." I basically feel like I'm not good enough and that I'm not allowed to become good enough, if that makes sense. I feel like if I stay here then I'll never grow to improve, never get a pay rise etc. I feel like I'll be stuck. Basically, I wake up every weekday morning dreading the idea of getting into the car to go to work. I also feel like shit on Sunday afternoons/evenings because I know I have to get up for work the next day.
I find it difficult to stand up for myself as I have a low confidence/self esteem, been like that for most of my life. I was severely bullied all through high school and sadly, despite high school finishing ten years ago, it still lingers on.
I don't want be totally helpless... I've applied for new jobs. In the past twelve months I've applied for fifteen new jobs. Two of which I've heard back from, had one interview but unfortunately didn't get the job, and the other opportunity I passed down because it was only temporary. I've just recently applied for a new job and I plan on applying for another one I've spotted very shortly. I've been doing a lot of work on my resume as of late.
Now my personal life isn't that great either... I guess I shouldn't complain too much, I have a wonderful girlfriend who's absolutely perfect for me, but sometimes... I get the same feeling about my job as I do with some of my friends, e.g. under valued, under appreciated, not listened to etc. I try and help my friends a lot and I feel that sometimes, they may be taking advantage of it or/and taking it for granted. I hope it's not selfish of me to feel this way?
It's also upsetting because, well, I like taking care of my girlfriend and I want to help her. See, she has social anxiety and she has also struggled with depression in the past. She doesn't have the best confidence and I want to help her grow and help her better herself - I want her to be successful and happy. One of my friends commented on this and said that I shouldn't be doing this as it's "weak" of me and going to make me "weaker", apparently. It feels pretty horrible to hear that. :/
Exercise helps a lot... I do judo three times a week and I'm at the gym three times a week. Also as of late, my girlfriend and I do afternoon/evening walks about three times a week. I'm slowly easing her into exercise, as we continue the walking and get better at it, we'll move onto higher intensity exercise. Exercise does make me feel better, but I feel I'm an up and down kinda person. At work I'm down, then after work after my exercise, I go up. I'm a frickin' yo-yo during the week.
I guess... at the end of the day, with both work and friends, I just feel like I'm not "good enough". That's what's making me feel like shit.
Would it be wise to seek out the advice of a psychologist or psychiatrist? Or should I just talk to people about my issues? Are my problems sincere, or am I just being a sook? :/